Best Friend,
I miss myself. We're always together and I feel like I'm losing my identity. We're total opposites and that's why we get along really well. After you ditched me for a guy, I realized that people do really come and go no matter how close you were. I made new friends but I don't want a new best friend not because you're my only best friend but because I don't want to be attached to a person who will live me eventually. I watch movies and shop alone. I do things by myself and I enjoyed it. I was like that for almost a year and I survived without a best friend. Then you came back and asked for my forgiveness and I forgave you. We started hanging out again but something's not right. I can still remember what you did to me. I tried to forget it and somehow I did.
We're back to being best friends again but I need my me time and I know that someday you'll ditch me again for a guy. You want to dress similarly, you always want to do things together but that's not me. Trouble came our way, we both made a mistake but I never thought you'd just let people think that I'm this person who influences you to do bad things. Both of us know that I'm not like that. I'm not perfect and I'm not saying I'm a good girl. I never tried to control you cause it's your life, you'll live it the way you want. You made mistakes but you never learn, you keep on doing it. I tried telling you but do you even try to listen? No, you don't, that's why I will never give you an advice cause it's useless.
How I wish you defended me to your mom when she said that I'm a bad influence to you and about my piercing? She thinks I'm a bad person cause I have a piercing on my face. Did you even try to defend me? No. Lovely.
It's like all the mistakes you did was blamed on me. A lot has happened, I don't have to remind you. Small things matters to me. Do you remember when you're boyfriend insulted my family? Maybe you don't but I do and I will never forget that. After everything that happened, I just stop caring.
Maybe I can forgive you but it will never be the same.
Now, I'm not sure if you're really my friend.
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